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sensiblebird
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My ex boyfriend.
Trauma Support / by sensiblebird
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 September 14th, 2020
...See more When i was 17, i got forced by my ex boyfriend to do stuffs to him else he threatened to tell my orthodox parents about our relationship. I was scared of my parents so did as i was told but my fear really made him do whatever he wanted to do with me. He'd always say he doesn't likes my friends and made me stop trying to see them. I really had enough and decided to break off with him no matter what when one day he came over when my parents where out of town and i was down with fever, and tried to rape me. I kept crying and screaming and asked him to have mercy cause i'm sick but he didn't listen. After that incident i told him to stay away from me. I moved to another city, changed my numbers. Yet he kept asking for forgiveness and trying to see me over next few years. Everytime he'd get my number from any close friend I'd change it again. I feel disgusted that i didn't do things sooner but i never really had the courage to go against him. I got into self harming and suicidal attempts after leaving him. Its been 6 years but it just doesn't seems to get better. Sometimes it all starts replaying in my head like it has happened only yesterday. I haven't been with anyone else since and really struggle with trusting people and considering relationships.
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