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Pet loss
Grief & Loss / by shyCurrent1253
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 September 30th
...See more So, as the title says, I just lost a piece of myself, my baby of 11 years. Attached to my hip, always under feet, and always under a blanket or laying in the sun. But he started having seizures, and we did everything we could, but it wasn't enough, and his sweet, loving, little body just couldn't take anymore. It happened so fast. From the first seizure to his passing was only 3 days. I knew I'd miss him, but oh my God I miss everything. I got laundry out of the dryer and opened my mouth to call him. There's no more carrying his little old bones to bed, so he could snuggle in next to me. I feel adrift, lost, and I'm truly scared my depression is just going to swallow me whole after this. I'm trying to fight it, I have so much to live for, but it's so so hard to see a life ahead without my baby. I expected another 5-8 years, Boston's can go as far as 20+ years sometimes. Now there's a space where he should be. And I have another dog, whom I dearly love, and now I worry I need to get him a sibling, bc he's never been alone. But I'm not ready for another dog. Do I be selfish, and wait, or do I get him a friend? Oddly, he seems fine. He's eating, playing. Wants to go on walks. I think he's okay. I'm sorry for ranting. My brain/ body really can't handle this and my previous coping mechanisms no longer serve me (rhymes with rugs). So. That's my first post. Thank you for reading ❤️
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