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I told my boyfriend that I emotionally cheated on him but he doesn’t think so. What do yu guys think?
Relationship Stress / by sociableTalker5400
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 May 9th, 2025
...See more Hi everyone, so, I posted awhile ago regarding this and I have been receiving such kindness and support. I would like to thank the community once again for all the support. Just to recap, from my previous post, my boyfriend of 11 years was suffering from depression during the Covid 19 period. It was really bad and I became his main caretaker. I had to help him get out of bed, made sure he ate and just try to keep him alive. Our sex life had suffered badly then. I was battling a life threatening disease and just got out of the hospital and I had lost a lot of weight. Being in the hospital for a month does a huge toll on you. After that, I tried to initiate intimacy with my bf but he rejected me. He told me that I had lost so much weight that I felt like a different person. That was the last straw and in my moment of weakness, I sent some explicit pictures of myself to an artist on *** to draw me. It was a form of art and I just wanted my body to be appreciated. I started to talk a little to the artist and he started to flirt with me. I admit that I was so stupid and I didn’t catch it fast enough and I did flirt back. I am a generally friendly person and I love talking to people. I did feel that I was just being polite. Eventually he sent me an explicit photo of himself and that’s when I finally realised what was going on. I told the guy off, deleted everything and blocked him. I have not contacted him ever since. To be clear, I don’t even know what he looks like or which part of the world he is at. lol. It has been eating at me for the longest period of time and I recently told my bf about it. I was so surprised at how he reacted as he didn’t see what I did as cheating and told me that the moment I realise that the artist was coming on to me and I blocked him and all, I did the right thing. he doesn’t feel like I did anything wrong at all, however, I still feel so guilty about the whole situation. I have suffered from sexual abuse as a child and I do have some bad body image issues and I do have quite a bad gauge of men. How would you cope with the guilt and what is your opinion of this? I feel like I should have been punished for this, however my boyfriend seems completely fine with it. Once again, I would really like to thank this community for being so patient with me and I wish you guys all the love and happiness. ❤️
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I feel like I emotionally cheated
Relationship Stress / by sociableTalker5400
Last post
 March 23rd, 2025
...See more Hi everyone. I have had something weighing on my mind lately. I am 30 this year and I am a female. I am currently in a relationship with my boyfriend of 12 years. I do feel like I have emotionally cheated on him and it has been killing me the past few months. My boyfriend of 12 years was going through a very bad depressive episode during the Covid pandemic. And I was his main caretaker. He was taking a part time degree at that point of time and it go so bad where I had to finish his assignments for him. There were days where I had to help him get out of bed, convince him to eat… etc. Our sexual life also suffered badly. During that time, I tried to initiate intimacy to make him feel better, however he rejected my advances. I had just gotten out of the hospital due to my auto immune condition and I had lost a lot of weight. I also was sexually abused when I was a child so I do have very bad body image issues. So on the day he rejected me, I actually sent some explicit photos to an artist on social media to draw me. It started out as completely innocent and I just wanted someone to draw me and appreciate my body as I felt so bad and lonely. I made sure to keep myself as safe as possible and sent the photos. The artist drew me beautifully and I was so happy with the drawing. However, after that the artist who drew me started to flirt with me. Initially I was too distraught to realise what was going on. And I do admit that I did flirt back with him. I believe this lasted less than 5 occasions. After which, I felt that it was so wrong, I blocked him, told him off and deleted all the messages. Now I just have no idea whether to tell my bf about it or whether it is something that I can just move on. I don’t know the artist in person or even which part of the world he is from. Sometime early last year, I attempted suicide as I live a very stressful lifestyle. My bf and I run a company together where I do most of the work, however I do have a lot of pressure on me as I have salaries to pay and employees to look after. My suicide attempt nearly costed me my relationship and I am so worried. I am not too sure if I am over thinking or whether I need to tell him what I have done. Thank you for taking the time to read this and any input is appreciated.
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