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tealMelon1154
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I need help with my issues which have been affecting my relationship
Relationship Stress / by tealMelon1154
Last post
 October 11th
...See more So I need some advice. I recently got married but keep in mind I’m in my early 20s still. I feel sick of conforming to a role not that I hate my husband. However being newly wed but living with his parents has been a blessing and a curse. There’s no alone time like ever and I’ve been working most of the time with him as well. My family stopped talking to me completely. I just wish I could be happy but like I feel like I can’t do anything without consulting. I feel like I mess up and I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Gosh I just feel so stuck. And my eating disorder has been coming back with pangs of anxiety getting to me causing me heart palpitations. I cry whenever I think about my family and today I made a terrible mistake. I embarrassed my husband at a public restaurant saying don’t touch me please because the night before he completely ignored me. His family is now mad at me because I did that but tbh I just didn’t want him to touch my side belly area in public bc I have an eating disorder. 
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I feel guilty and sad when I eat
Eating Disorder Support / by tealMelon1154
Last post
 December 28th, 2023
...See more Last year, I used to weigh <edit> lbs with a slight fluctuation into <edit> lbs as a constant weight. (For reference I am <edit> foot <edit>) However, now I weigh at my lowest <edit> lbs due to a combination of not eating, throwing up or chewing/spitting my food before swallowing. I don't have much time to eat as a college student that's also doing a paid internship. This had made me regress to my old eating disorder along with new symptoms. I can't eat or sleep because nothing not even food makes me really happy. In fact, when I eat I feel super guilty about eating even though I know it's necessary to live. What should I do?
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I feel very bad about my eating habits
Eating Disorder Support / by tealMelon1154
Last post
 August 5th, 2023
...See more Recently my ED has manifested itself with my anxiety. Everything I eat I either throw up or munch in my mouth for a bit then place it in a napkin. It's gross but doing it helps reduce my guilt of eating. What are some tips that I can follow to stop feeling bad about eating or should I exercise more to eat?
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I'm in a very dark place rn
Anxiety Support / by tealMelon1154
Last post
 July 17th, 2023
...See more I started off this week by hitting the gym, baking and new things..But I just feel sad and hopeless plus I have been fighting tears while working out at the gym. My old bestfriend of 10 years left off to another state and has a good job. I'm still in university still in my undergrad but my major doesn't even excite me anymore. And it's gotten to the point where I have began hating myself and my life choices. I don't feel happy even when talking to my boyfriend who I feel doesn't understand my anxiety. I just want to go into a deep sleep and not worry about anything.
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Anxiety and alcohol
Anxiety Support / by tealMelon1154
Last post
 June 19th, 2023
...See more Hi all, I have been drinking alcohol a lot recently to suppress my emotions but it doesn't help that I have anxiety. I'm at a really bad place where I have to have some drinks in my system at least a couple times per week to feel okay. Ik I shouldn't do this but anyone have any recommendations on how to relax without drinking? I have bee hiding this from people I know but drinking helps me feel better somewhat.
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Wish I didn't feel this way
Anxiety Support / by tealMelon1154
Last post
 June 23rd, 2023
...See more Recently, I have begun a new relationship with my bf. I have been having constant panic attacks, insomnia, undersleeping and feeling hopeless. I'm on vacation from school while my bf is 2 hours away near my uni. I don't think he believes that I have anxiety or that it's an illness that affects my day to day. Especially while I'm at home I think his past trust issues makes him overthink my anxiety. I feel like I've given enough love and affection but I'm tired in my life. My life sucks rn especially since I have family problems, financial and mental health problems. I feel like I would be better off isolating myself from everyone bc I just wake up everyday to a same old routine. There's no joy just sameness that kills me up inside. I've tried to be happy but it temporarily helps since it all feels fake. Everyday I wake up thinking how I wish I didn't have anxiety or just do anything.
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