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...See more I'm 14 yeah, and I've come to the realization that's I don't want to be lesbian matter a fact before I even realized the obvious I knew I wouldn't like this, I understand it's not something I can choose but in the end right now I wish I wasn't this. Being Gay has only brought unfortunately circumstances to me, from falling out with friends to friends disrespecting me being gay in the means of a joke, and me falling unfortunately falling in love with my best friend, only to end up hurting her feelings just because I couldn't accept myself and love her in public. My mom doesn't even know nothing about this I tell her everything that happens at school and everyday my mom wish I didn't went to an all girls school and not even 30 minutes ago she just said, "I need to go to your principal and tell her about all the gays that are in your class. I don't want my daughter to turn like them" and her rant went on, which deeply hurts because I'm there right infront of her just there not knowing how to react knowing I'm what she would hate to know. This isn't the first my mother has done this so I should get used to it by now, and it's not like my father is any better. I know this is selfish, rude, and embarrassing to say but even this has lead me to be a homopobic bully with a low self esteem who surrounds her self with friend who continues to call me homopobic slurs in the means of a joke and has lead me to make some choices I regret but know I'll some how continue to do. Btw while experiencing this I'm not saying it as an excuse for my behavior because I do know it's wrong.

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