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turquoise21
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Tired of having friends the older I get.
Friendship Support / by turquoise21
Last post
 June 25th, 2025
...See more I’ll be 32 next month and at this point in my life I don’t have any solid friendships anymore. I had a solid group of friends near the end of high school, in college, and post-college up until maybe this past year or two.  I had a fall out with two of my friends and the rest we just all went different directions. Sometimes I miss the memories with those former friends, but they aren’t people I’d choose to reconnect with ever again.  The people I’d consider to be friends with still today, I’m getting tired of maintaining connections with. I’ve seemed to attract the ones who always have A LOT to talk about with their own lives or who radiate negativity and while I’ve always been a huge listener and empathizer, I’m sick of it. Because after I sit here and take genuine interest in their lives, I share what’s going on in my life or bring up topics of conversation and all I get is head nods or two word answers of confirmation or no response at all if it happens to be through text. I truly feel like I’m just existing as other people’s therapist or even just something to fill their own void. I’m an introvert and very much thrive best in my own company. If I’m being truly honest, if I never spoke again to any one of the friends who are still semi-around in my life, I would not even care. That’s the point I’ve reached. It’s just become too exhausting dealing with selfish people.  I have no desire to find new friends. No one has ever found me attractive so I’ve never been on a single date ever and thus have never been in a relationship. I’ve come to terms with being alone and deep down, if it’s just me and my dog at some point, I’ll be totally okay with it.  Anyone else going through something similar? As humans, I know social connection is important, but I just don’t care for it anymore. 
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I cannot fathom working for 35+ more years
Work & Career / by turquoise21
Last post
 January 7th
...See more I’m 31. I’m on my fifth job since graduating college back in 2016. Worked for healthcare for the majority of these years, a short stint in the food industry, and now I’m in an entry level corporate position. I am burned out. Beyond burnt out. Every job I’ve held in my professional years has been high stress, unreasonable workloads, and unsatisfying.  I have no aspirations for trying to find a new “career”. I have searched and scoured and taken various free online courses for different interests and I do not care for anything. I just want a job that can make ends meet and not make me mentally unwell   I’m miserable and so exhausted. I’m crabby and *** off all the time. I can’t relax when I’m not at work. I hate all the repeated advice of making sure to set boundaries, getting enough sleep, exercising, having hobbies, not being so serious about work, finding another new job that won’t make you mentally unwell. This is capitalism, baby. Take it or be homeless. All I’ve know is large corporate companies, I can’t imagine small businesses could be better.  I hate that I have to work to survive on a planet I didn’t even ask to be on. I wasn’t made for sitting at a computer for 8+ hours a day, but I have no direction on where to head anymore. I’m completely lost and discouraged. Everyday I hope something just takes me out so I can get a break.  
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