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...See more Last month, my gf broke up with me. I gave that girl my everything. Love paragraphs, trust, communication, understanding, princess treatment, everything I felt she deserved. And I grew VERY. VERY. attached only to get hurt 8 months later. She was an avoidant with Bipolar Disorder, so the rls had its rough moments. But it was sooo healthy. Idk what went wrong. Anyway, the day she broke up with me was the WORST. I bawled my eyes out, went to school looking drained, and just felt awful. I kept checking her reposts on *** only to find out she moved on SO fast. Not even 3 days after the breakup, mind u. Ts *** me up baddd. Not to mention, I found out she told her hb that she wasn’t even planning on staying wit me for too long, nd that we never left the talking stage, nd that I rushed everything when she literally matched energy. Nd I always made sure she was comfortable nd took my time with her. Ts made it even worse. Fast forward a couple days later, I add this stud on ***. She’s cute and all, but I don’t think she’s loyal. Still, I fell for her and I’m with her now. But I don’t think I’m truly ready to be with her. Ik she’s just a distraction to stop me from thinking abt my ex bcs I miss her like crazy. But I can’t leave, nd ik that’s bad. But I’m lowkey spiraling, and nobody can see it. I’m hurt, confused, nd craving smth that only a rls can give me. Even though this stud has red flags, I still can’t leave. Ik I should, but I can’t. And I know I’m not okay, but I want to be. And I wish everyone would stop yelling at me and give me a minuet. I really need a *** minuet. As someone who was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, I just really need a minuet. And I feel alone, and like nobody is listening or understanding me. So much has happened. I’ve been hurt SO many times. Nd now I’m spiraling. Nd I’m losing myself. Ik I need help, but idk where to find it. I just want ppl to see that I’m trying. I really am.

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