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Need help moving on or dealing with break up depression
Relationship Stress / by understandingPeach9874
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 June 9th, 2021
...See more Never know my life will come until this low to be needing a counselling community but I just don’t know how to get through with this . I have known my ex girlfriend since age 7 (2008 ), but we only officially gotten together at the age of 17 (2018) . Last February , we gotten into a heated argument about something stupid which I feel wasn’t even my fault to begin with . So during the argument , she said some things that really hurt me for example , I hate how stupid and clown your mentality is . Of course I got upset and I told her that even-tough we’re in an argument , you shouldn’t have lash those harsh words on me . Instead of stopping and apologise , she made me feel even worse by saying even hurtful things towards me . At the end of it , we have decided to have a pause in the relationship and talk once we have calm down . At that time my country was having a lock down and I’m far away from her , so I told her that to have a pause until I am able to come visit , which should be 2 weeks from then . But after 1 week of the pause , she decided to end things with me . At that time I was abit upset but more fed up and angry of the fights and angry things she say towards me so I just agreed to the break up . Starting March 2021 until Mid of May , I’ve been having a hard time moving on from her but I try my best to keep myself occupied so that I don’t think about it . On the 29 May , our country went into full lock down again so now I’m stuck at home and have nothing to keep myself occupied . I’ve been thinking a lot lately and it has severely affected my mood to study , do anything even waking up to brush teeth and cleaning up myself . My ex mom did check in on me from time to time as she treated me like I’m her son , her mom told me that she’s also recovering from the break up and plans to like talk to me on end of August after her sem has finished . I’ve been sleeping very late some days around 6am and been waking up at around 9am . Reason I sleep so late is because I wanna make sure that I’m really fully drained tired , so that when I lay down in bed , I’ll straight fall asleep and not let my mind wonder off to the memories with her . But lately I’ve been waken up by dreams of her or memories of us together , and everytime I wake up , my heart is always ponding and the rest of my day is ruined and I can’t fall back to sleep . I still love her alot and I regret of letting her go out from my life . I asked her few days ago that is there a chance for us to be back together , she said she’s not looking to be in any relationship atm and focusing on her studies . Some days , part of me just want to move on and part of me keeps telling myself maybe she will come around . So I’m not sure what should I do and it has seriously drained me mentally and physically . I would appreciate any words of encouragement , any tricks to move on or just anything in general to help me cope with this break up . Thanks everyone sorry for the long story
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