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PathStep 2 Compassion hearts36 Forum posts3 Forum upvotes21 Current upvotes21 Age GroupAdult Last activeJuly, 2026 Member sinceMay 9, 2025
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How Can I Trust Myself If I Don't Know Who I'll Be Tomorrow?
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by uttax
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 May 20th
...See more The worst part of being bipolar isn’t even the episodes themselves - it’s what comes after. That realization that my thoughts, beliefs, and desires shift completely depending on my mood. In mania, I have certain opinions and values, and then, when everything settles, I look back and can’t agree with them. It terrifies me because how can I trust myself if I don’t even know who I’ll be next? I get stuck in this limbo where every decision feels both right and wrong—I know that something I believed in mania might make sense, but I also know that another version of me would say it’s not real. I’ve never thought of other people with mental illnesses as ‘crazy,’ but I do think that about myself sometimes, because it scares me how little control I have over who I am.
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Hey, you.
20 & Over / by uttax
Last post
 May 26th
...See more I’d love to meet someone open to sharing thoughts that sit a bit deeper than “how are you”, random late-night reflections, and those quiet moments that somehow feel bigger than they should. 28f
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