How Can I Trust Myself If I Don't Know Who I'll Be Tomorrow?
The worst part of being bipolar isn’t even the episodes themselves - it’s what comes after. That realization that my thoughts, beliefs, and desires shift completely depending on my mood. In mania, I have certain opinions and values, and then, when everything settles, I look back and can’t agree with them. It terrifies me because how can I trust myself if I don’t even know who I’ll be next? I get stuck in this limbo where every decision feels both right and wrong—I know that something I believed in mania might make sense, but I also know that another version of me would say it’s not real. I’ve never thought of other people with mental illnesses as ‘crazy,’ but I do think that about myself sometimes, because it scares me how little control I have over who I am.
@uttax You not crazy. Ok? Do not think you crazy. You not! How you act in you episodes are not you. Please be nice to you.
@uttax Learn reality testing, engage supportive people to help you see what is real. If you need medication, get a prescription. You can heal and find ways to function. It is a worthwhile process. One step at a time. Your efforts will help you. Trying is the first step.
I can totally relate to this problem of yours, I am bipolar type 1 diagnosed and yes your thoughts, beliefs etc. do change rapidly and they seem to be in conflict all the time. I would suggest you to maintain a journal to track them and eliminate which one do make sense or which one doesn't, when you are feeling stable
Take good care of yourself and I hope this advice helps you out 👍
Me in every word well said I have so much pain I’ve caused in the last mouth and on top of bipolar I’m hyper sexual and it tearing my relationship up with the best man I’ve ever had!!
Me in every word well said I have so much pain I’ve caused in the last mouth and on top of bipolar I’m hyper sexual and it tearing my relationship up with the best man I’ve ever had!!