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...See more So there's a lot of factors in this so I'm sorry if this is long. I was assigned female at birth (they/she) and still partially identify as such, and my current crush is a girl. I know that she is bisexual due to a sticker, and we've complimented each other back and forth, but my anxiety is so severe that I can't bring myself to see if we can even be friends or try to get her number. It closes up my throat and I can't talk to her. I have a lot of reasons for anxiety around this. Firstly, I'm asexual. I still have romantic feelings but I always have this fear that no one is ever going to want to be in a relationship with me or understand that. I don't know how she'd feel about that; I'm sure as a friend she'd be accepting, but in a relationship, I don't know. Secondly, I've never had a crush this strong before. I really have the desire to be with her, but I've never been in a relationship and I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. I'm really afraid of rejection. And then there's the topic of my family; my close family is trying their best, they know I've liked both girls and guys before. They don't know I'm asexual, and they think I'm unlabeled. They're all mormon, so I know they're just praying I settle with a guy. (Despite the fact I prefer women, I'm omniromantic) They would not approve of me in a wlw relationship, and my extended family would be horrible to come out to; they'd never accept it. If I got in a relationship with her, it's more than likely I'd have to not tell them for a while. I don't know how to overcome my anxiety, and part of me wants to just give up and wait for this to fade. But I really would like to at least try. Any advice or ideas?

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