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...See more Not entirely sure where to post this but I do apologise if it's not in the correct thread. Ok so I'm not awfully good with words & explaining my emotions ect but I'm seeing this guy & he's wonderful! So caring, passionate, thoughtful & just genuine in my eyes, I guess you could say I have taken somewhat of a shine to him.🙄 However, I'm finding it super difficult to come up with the words with explaining to him how my anxiety effects me & basically what goes on in my head, day in day out. He is aware that I suffer with it & that I'm on medication but I can't help but think that he just doesn't understand me, yes I guess I am overthinking but I just can't help it... I don't know whether I should just come out with it all but then I'm worried it just won't be perfectly put across, like word wise, you know? Or that he just thinks I'm completely crazy & I scare him off 😩 Then again, do I just wait until he reads up on it or asks me more about it, cause then it should prove to me that he's interested in knowing more about my illness....more about me? In all honesty, I'm ever so scared & worried...I'm just thinking of ending things with him because.. Well, I guess I just don't want to find out what he thinks, you know? I don't want to be left alone cause he's scared of me or the fact It seems too much to handle or cope with. But then surely it'll be easier for me to just end it now so he doesn't have to know how messed up I am & I don't have to put him through that whole situation? & I don't have to feel like I'm dragging him down cause I'm literally such an emotional mess & I mean, he has his own problems too. I'm just so confused & stressed & getting myself in a right state! I just need some help, I'd be so appreciative & thankful...like where do I start?? How do I start?? Shall I even start??😩 I am aware that he likes me...well so he says, but why would he like me? I come with so much baggage & problems, what could be so likeable about that?? 😰😳 I do apologise for all my questions too! & my "essay" I just need some support & advice.

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