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xolaris
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i am ftm trans, struggling with anxiety and PTSD/trauma. i came here to begin to find ways to cope with stress and anxiety and foggy headspaces so that i can be the best version of myself. as a digression: i have spiritual connection to the sun, and see it as a guide of how to be the best version of myself; i want my actions here on out to have gravity to become radiant, positive, responsible, fair, honest and reliable. (a long list, but be glad i didn't put everything.)

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Dissociation
Trauma Support / by xolaris
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 November 18th, 2018
...See more I just need to get this out. The more things happen in my life and the faster it goes, the harder I lose pieces and dissociate. I dont have time to heal, or I just dont know how. I just literally dont feel real. I feel inauthentic most of the time. No one notices me. I feel insignificant to peoples lives. I dont feel loved. I dont feel anything at all. And I know its a problem because I do have people in my life. I just disappoint them constantly. I dont feel like I fit in. Im so fucking out of it i cant recall what role I play for the people in my life most of the time. Im losing track. I think my parents fucked me up. They neglected me as a child and abused me and hit me and it just fuckjg hurt. Now Im an adult and Im still messed up. My parents arent in my life anymore but they're still ruining me. Why cant I feel anything I dont want to dissociate anymore
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