I’m very angry

Someone who works under me leaked a conversation that has garnered hate for me. It’s been miserable. This started three months ago. Things are quiet so I can start to function again. I’m back to reading and rock painting and crocheting. And I’m back to seeing things clearly vs in panic mode. I am so angry with those who abandoned me. Who I never would have abandoned. I didn’t realize how angry I was until I told them how I felt about them abandoning me. This is just the beginning of peeling the layers since I'm only starting to feel emotions more clearly now. I am messaging with a therapist but maybe I need to see one in person. Im just really angry at all that has gone on. And really peaking for me right now.