Ramblings: Over 50, Crotchety, & Married

'Purely <long> Ramblings [Disclaimer: Extremely Dry Humour]'

This year is coming to an end. Thank Goodness

While I am so grateful this year is coming to an end for this year hasn't been the best.

There is much I have to be grateful for: I am not in Ukraine, I am not an illegal immigrant [All Americans are immigrants except for American Indians) ...

I pause to wonder... Not all who Wonder are Lost

I hate people, crowds, politics, news, and Walmart.
I can read most people like a book and not like what I see.
I find people are illogical, ignorant, stupid, irrational, unlearned and a major let down.

I know harsh. Which then, maybe an explanation is needed?

I have spent much energy to learn, (maybe) understand and find out who or what I am.
Many classes Psychology, family studies courses, etc. and Years of Therapy [couldn't put Humpty together]
While, it is easy to learn of concepts and triggers, apply labels, and see external factors of a person. Just Don't look in the mirror.

Wait! Could this be a self reflection speech. Easy answer. No! Nope! Not even close.

So back to explanation, my personality, it is the expanded version of the Myers-Briggs
[INTJ-T] Turbulent Architect

So what is that and what does it mean. Simply answer is:
Architects react with Logic and Reasoning before their emotions come into play and confuse things.

Architects feel that their emotions control them more than they control their emotions.
Architects struggle to understand their own emotions (hence Don't look in the mirror because it wont make sense).
Architects find their own emotions to be a hinderance
Architects find that emotions of other people confusing and/or nonsensical

So it is logical to avoid people and politics as a whole because they are illogical and nonsensical.

it is rewarding to have a simpler outcome of logical sense of 0 or 1. Yes / No.

Emotions confuse and muddy the waters of life.
Now Emotions have their place... Just not with us

"So I have noticed, you have avoided Religion. Why is that"
that is a trilogy for another era of the human race that has yet to be.
So let us stay away from that.

So how is it Married??

Men are from Mars & Women are from Venus. It is a lie!

You all are from a different Universe. Aliens! It has yet to be understood or studied for your race. Magellan has nothing on you all.

I have found it most difficult from time to time to "keep my cool" when there are illogical 'conversations' to put it politely.

Simple logical requests are takin over the top

Gesture <Jester> of consideration and affection seem required but not affirmed and mostly not reciprocated.

While I do NOT require anyone for anything. I can fend and take care of 100% of everything (in my own time) myself.

I do wish to share (what I perceive is important) it with those that I feel are important in my life.

But if you think I am going to be irrationally scrutinized for not utilizing with platitude or not utilizing the correct Politically Correct, forget it.

I am confident, we are not easy to live with. But am just as confident that it isn't always easy to live with you

So what is Happiness?

Happiness is a state of eliminating stupid.

In the morning, give me my dog. Be just north of the equator where it isn't too hot and will never be cold.

Cup of Joe on the patio of some Maw & Paw joint with a local newspaper of the local happenings [What is in the Theater or plays, comedy shows, etc)

Watching the people walking down the street, drinking my Joe, petting my dog while silently thinking ... Pondering ... extrapolating

What is preventing much of this type of happiness?

ourselves. Not particularly enlightening is it? sounds about normal

Architects do not require to be right, but they do require you (and themselves) to do it right (What they perceived). Here is a quote to explain better

"Turbulent personalities [mine] tend to operate with a restless and sometimes anxious need for perfection in everything that they do.

This applies not only to the work that they produce but also to how they feel about themselves. They’re significantly more likely

to feel overwhelmed by disappointment and are much more likely than Assertive types to feel like they will never live up to their

own expectations, especially if they also have the Prospecting trait."

Self-Deprecating is common. Self doubt, even though we know or at least we perceive. If what we perceive is incorrect. Architects don't want to hear they are wrong.

They want proof of what is right. In other words, don't try to prove Architect wrong. Prove what is correct!

Why write this?
I really have not clue!!

WOW all this revelation is exhausting for an introvert.

Let me go back to my silence and isolation to recharge