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[Trigger Warning: Medical Details]

I go by snookies because that was my pet name from a dear friend. I'm going to be 55 years old on Sunday. I don't celebrate my birthday. I could not tell you when I had a birthday cake. I live with my boyfriend and we been together for 15 years. I be lost without him. I'm very sick lady right now. The last past year I have been hospitalize almost nine times. The third time my kidneys had shut down and I had heart failure when the ambulance got me to the hospital. Later that night I had a stroke and blood clots going down my left arm. That day they had sent me to a bigger hospital about 50 miles away from home. After a lot of test and xrays. I had one blood clot on my spleen, one blood clot on right side of my ventricle and one on the left side ventricle. I'm very lucky to be here texting today. I spent days in the hospital on alot of its. Including one in my neck. It was a scary time and I did it with no one by my side. We don't have car and I told my boyfriend the best thing you can do is keep working and I be home soon. I came home and I had to make big life style change. I was doing really good. Then I found out I have chronic pancreatitis I use to weigh 426lbs during this sickness I'm down 312lbs. This is the worst sickness you can have! The pain can get so bad you wish you could have labor pains instead. Some times the smell of food has me in the bathroom. Trying to eat is the worst. I can get really hungry and I can only take three bites. Then end up hospitalize because I can't take the pain or being sick. The last time my doctor said your blood work coming back saying your just dehydrated but your also malnutrition. The cat scan show you have three cyst on pancreas. I have appointment with specialist and it looks like I may have to have surgery to drain the cysts or take the pancreas out. It's a very scary decision to have surgery right now cause of corvid and do I want to live with out my pancreas. I rather wait for few months give my heart to heal and my brain to heal from the stroke. My body been through so much. Then there mental state I'm having problems with my daughter. Just too much for one person to handle. I'm do apologize now that if I'm here one day and you don't hear from me .. please know I will answer back. My body needs me to be sick or to sleep.

Back to introducing myself

I have four grown adult children. Three of them gave me 6 beautiful grandchildren.

I was born and raised in Philadelphia PA but now I have settle in Kentucky because this where my boyfriend lives. All my children but one who also move to Kentucky because of his girlfriend. The other three live on the east coast.

I hope to talk and make friends and help each other through life. Life is too short to miss out on meeting beautiful souls.