Hi hello I’m an 18 y o male. I don’t care about anyone at all not even my own mom and I hate everyone and Norms of society. I hate people act nice. I started to self isolate from people because I don’t want to hurt or manipulate people. Though some people I see as genuinely caring so I try to care about them and ignore inhibitions.
I used to be a very emotional person in childhood. I had high empathy to people and only sometimes lied about stuff. I was very nice to people and for some reason everyone proclaimed that I’m a good or nice person when they just met me. This doesn’t help me improve my executive dysfunction and I’m either a saint or an idiot according to parents and implicitly to others.
Occasionally called selfish sometimes which was kind of normal but started this spiral. Into teen years 15-18. I was very bad at common sense and very forgetful. It was so bad i had traits were much worse than normal absentmindedness or teen stuff. I would lose everything make unnecessary expenses for parents despite all the *** regular advice of “pay attention” “listen”. Then I got depressed junior summer due to stressful environment, burnout, parent contributed to . They invalidated it at first then took me to therapist. The therapist was too nice and surface level. They let me take too much of the lead and offered not much. I think for therapy to work for me I need to be led more and the therapist has to be assertive.
@darkluster343 they’d regularly call me selfish to the point I actually became selfish and stopped trying to help them. I think I turned to evil person idk what to do. I want to abandon my sick parent and move out but they won’t let me get a job