Reflection
I used to be anxious about a lot of things. But now, it's mainly just about getting a decent job, in the near future. Because I want to be able to support myself.. I used to understand people who "bed rot" , but that's not applicable for me now, because I HAVE to do something. I'm not that privileged to just do nothing. I will try to be better, I have to.
@bestFig3538
It sounds to me like you will succeed. Once upon a time, I was the only guy on the street who had a job. This was during an economic downturn in the 80s, in a community just south of Detroit. The news and job reports made the situation look really bad. National unemployment was about three times what is now. In my neighborhood, it was nearly 100%.
Things were so bleak, that a large number of the unemployed simply gave up and stopped looking for work. It occurred to me that if so many people are no longer looking for work, jobs are opening and far fewer people are seeking to fill them. That gave me an advantage because I knew that as bad as things were, some jobs were opening on a daily basis. I knew that with 100% certainty, so I knew it was just a matter of time before I found one. My job search was a full-time job until I found one. A few of the jobs were not great, but they did produce enough income to survive.
Years later, I was offered a partnership in an upscale property management company. I was told that the reason they wanted me was because of my "instinct to work." What they meant was they were impressed by my ability to remain employed, even when those around me couldn't find work.
I should mention, that during those years, I was a high school dropout, which made finding work more challenging, and my persistence a more significant factor. It's okay though. I finally went back to school and graduated college with honors.
There is much said about qualifications, education and experience. Those things are important, but what is far more important is persistence. It sounds like you have that in abundance, therefore you will succeed.