Feeling better but the sense of foreboding never leaves.
Iluvcrack
December 27th, 2019
I have just made the realization that I will be dealing with this for the rest of my life. My life will always be tumultuous. I will be good for a while and it will come back out of nowhere.
How can I ever be Happy when I can't trust my own emotions. How do I know if I can deal with it forever. What if I just wake up one day and decide I can't. I feel ok now. Like Hopeful that one day I can find a medicine that makes it easier, but what if I don't.
What if I just have to deal with this forever. This is my reality and it sucks.
