I don't know

Each day goes by painfully slowly, it's like time is frozen. I'm trying so hard to survive each day, i try so hard, i try to use my coping skills to feel something, but my attempts don't work. I feel so numb, i don't feel happy, i don't feel sad, i'm just stuck. I don't know how to cope at this point. I feel myself falling into that pit, but i'm trying so hard to survive. I don't want to hurt my family anymore, i just want a break from this madness.