I feel dead inside.
I just really need help.
To make the really long story short, I'm 17 and I've been depressed most of my life. My compassionate, caring nature comes from a history of being emotionally abused at 5-8 years of age, and from the age of 8-16, I've been deprived of so much social activity, focusing rather too much on studies and video games.
I let out anger through sadness because I don't want to hurt anyone; I don't want them to experience anything close to what I experienced. I don't like getting angry because I usually become too horrible for even myself to comprehend.
I feel so empty and incomplete. I fill in this void of sadness with the wonders of internet comedy and as well as video games, but it doesn't help in the long run. It only keeps me from suicide.
I'm like a filling a bucket of water with a hole; as much as I try to fill it up, it never becomes complete.
Thank you for the help in advance! I'd really appreciate any help I can get.
@Legofries
Hi there, you seem like such a nice person who wants to feel happy in life, Id suggest talking to people about it rather than bottling it in as that makes it worse. If you need more help, feel free to message me!
I m sorry for what you have to deal with , you are so young and you deserve to be happy , we all here for support, You are not alone
@Legofries I relate to how you feel. I hold in all my anger for the same reasons. I was abused continually for years. I have no love for myself and find it hard to care about anything, but talking to other people who care helps.
