I want an answer
Hi this is gloomygirl
I am in a situation and I am at that stage where I am hopeless and tired of things around me
I am a medical student but I have been admitted to the school with my parents interests and not mine.
My parents have always dreamt of making me a doctor but I wanted to study business. My father is rich and he had invested a lot of money into my studies that nobody could have imagined.
My exams are up and I don't feel like preparing for it.
Because whenever I take my books I ask myself what's the purpose of this.
I want to talk to my dad about dropping the med school but i just can't as I love him and I can't break his heart and the second thing if I drop right now all the money he has spent on me would be wasted which is huge.
Also I am in a place where families of my father and my mother are so close..and my parents's dreams were also theirs..so if I drop right now they would talk behind my back that I was a failure all this time..and it would bring humiliation to dad and mom.
I should have told him that I don't want to be in a med school..I resisted at first but couldn't convince him.
Nothing around me is making me happy..and I am leading a life without purpose.
Can somebody tell me what I should do
I went to pharmacy school without my will and i can say it was not easy. I ended up finishing it but i am still unhappy. I do like art but it does not pay well. To be honest, if i would do it again i will still have to pursue this path of stability. Then when you make money you can set aside your time to follow your passion. To me its more stressful not having a stable income.
Here are what I have learned in life:
• Your formal education does not have to determine your whole life unless you want it.
• Even if you graduate from med school, you don't have to practice as a doctor unless you want it.
• You can combine being a doctor and business. Especially in health field business, you will have more authority with relevant background education.
• The main issue now is probably how to finish it fast and have your own money to build your dreams.
• Your parents may not be wise that they are forcing their dreams upon you. But they love you. Kids grow older and stronger. Parents grow even older and weaker.
Good luck!
Performance anxiety, plain and simple. Push on.
