So angry that I want to die
I've never been so angry right now than I am now. I won't get into it because it will just make me angrier. But it's so bad that I would love to kill myself just to get out of this world. I would love to hurt the people that claim to love me by killing myself. They're all liars and pathetic excuses for human beings. They know nothing about compassion, understanding, love, and support. Anybody else ever consider suicide from "revenge" if you will? It may make things worse but I'd love to make them feel my pain for once. If they could feel my pain they wouldn't be so horrible towards me because they would know how it feels. I just want to die. Self-harm sounds good right about now. I want to hang myself but am too afraid of what will happen if I fail. I don't want to go to a hospital. I just want to hurt those around me because they're angering me so, so, so much to the point where I struggle to breathe properly and want to punch a hole through the wall. I am losing faith in the human race faster than I ever have.
@Lexloveslife hello Lex I have been down the road of not wanting to be on this earth myself. I was so desperately depressed and thought my life was over I had fallen so low and made so many poor choices and mistakes my future seems ruined. I was going to take my life but something inside of me would not let me do it. Someone that cared saw me and called the authorities and I was admitted into a psychiatric ward where I was able to get some anti depressants and talk to some professionals. I spent about 2 weeks there and at the time I was so turned upside down I struggled for a while. However I was able to see the light and I am so glad I did not end my life. I was reminded of something my grandma used to tell me.....this too shall pass. We get so caught up in our problems or what we perceive as problems we dont really realize that today is temporary. We do have the ability to think and talk about our sorrows and we do have a choice how we thi and it may seem impossible right now but try to trust things can and will change. We are what we think and I know when we are very depressed it is easier said than done but we must try to think we will be ok and reach out for support. I want to thank you for reaching out to everyone here at 7 cups. Please dont stop reaching out.....there are people everywhere that do care and really dont want you to hurt yourself.There are .crisis lines that are free to call and you will get to speak with a loving person that can help you not feel so alone in your time of need. I pray you find what can ease your pain and help you realize life is good and we all have good and bad times. The bad times will pass but like anything in life they will require patience and understanding. Be kind to yourself and know you are good and deserve to be here and happy. Happy Thanksgiving Lex we love you.