Stressed and Depressed
How can someone who claims to love you put you through so many ups and downs in a single day?
When you get upset suddenly it's your fault and they're reaming you a new one when they were the one who messed up.
Im exhausted emotionally and physically. My son is what holds me together. I'd do anything for him. I wake each morning to see him smile to hear his laughter and to just feel his warmth.
My biggest fear is him being taken from me by his egotistical neglectful abusive yet charismatic father. I stay to avoid the courts taking him from me but Im drained and I dont know how much more I can take.
I have no desire to hurt myself or my son... Let me be perfectly clear but throwing his father under the bus (metaphorically not literal) is very appealing but it would hurt his other kids to lose their father. They depend on him as their mother passed away and they have no other real presence of family in their lives... Oh what to do what to do...
Someone know a good lawyer in Orange County Florida
@Bluberry1785 I understand,It must be challenging.Did you try to google for the lawyer?
@Karasuno07
Found a few but I worry, I had bad experience with a lawyer I picked out of the Google...was hoping for a recommendation
@Bluberry1785 well,I don't live there so I unfortunately can't help you. sorry~
@Karasuno07
No its ok thanks.... Sometimes just venting helps. I felt bad his kids were being kids fighting over stupid crap not listening typical stuff for 16 and 10 yr olds but I blew a gasket. I felt bad raising my voice.... Even butthead was like are you ok. He knows I never raise my voice but the stress is getting to me. I told him he needed to start being a parent and partner because I was sick of him leaving everything up to me.
But it's time, I need to take my son and leave. This environment is toxic.
@Bluberry1785 I understand,I see you are trying your best.Don't forget about self care during all this.
@Karasuno07
I try. I even went out and treated myself to new sneakers. None of my shoes fit since I had the baby and Id put off buying anything that wasnt for thr baby
@Bluberry1785 good job!I really appreciate it.^^
