Tired soul.
My story is long & full of horrible things. Recently though I was happy I found someone who made it all go away. Recently though hes been mean. He told me today that he hates his life hes tired of me. Hes tired of my insecurities and of dealing with me he didnt care anymore if I left or stayed that he deserved better. I was stripping when I met him(thats far behind me now) but today he mentioned that I was pathetic my life before him was sad I was a dance away from turning tricks. Being with him made my life better but his worse. Im currently 5 months pregnant, and I dont know what to do to fix us. I miss him and how we used to be. We over came a lot together. 3 months into dating I found his ex(mother of his son) was claiming she was pregnant again which happened before he met me we were both in denial because she was still bitter about them ending but this July she did give birth to his daughter which tore me apart but I got over it. In September she calls him saying she cant do it anymore she cant raise his 12 month son & 2 month old daughter so we went for them and been raising them since. Ive never liked being at home I have two other daughters that I raised and I went to school and worked. This is the first time Ive had to stay home all day with really young babies and its become a lot. My step son has behavioral issues that are causing a strain on my pregnancy & my relationship. I want to be that mother that loves being at home but its not happening idk wh
@CorpseBride28 oh dear, you're already a hero for what you do, you let your partner know how precious you are and how lucky he is to have you, don't let him shame you for your past, his life is getting worse for his failures with his ex girlfriend, and not only you're raising his 2 babies with him while carrying your own, you're actually keeping his life together from falling apart too.. It's mutual support and mutual relationship, you need a brake and quality time, you need to work on and rebuild yourselves. Don't let anyone undermine or belittle you. Wish you all the best.
@CorpseBride28
Your boyfriend sounds like a jerk. You don't need him. Don't take someone who says really mean stuff to you. You deserve a person who loves you for who you are and cares for you and accepts your flaws. Stay strong love
Tired of following the rules of life and my rules.
Its not going anyhwere. And its actually going to a way where I get lost though moving forward and trying find the way where i should be heading to and yet its all messed.
Is it either I continue being ridiculous trying to find that i am supposed because maybe as I continue to work that out I might get on track again....
Or I should stop trying this hard to find the way I am supposed to because the thing is I am just like trying hard to get on track and maybe i should stop those which means if I stop it means I break the rules of my life and that also means it is something I am looking for and should be doing so that my soul would'nt get this tired....
But as i think those... it is contradicting myself or the rules of life which is "you would'nt be able to be successful without working hard" but it is still contradicting because... its like if you want to work hard... work hard on a thing that interest you the most.. the one you wanted the most.. the problem.... i just dont know and i am not sure what it is I wanted the most...😥
@raspberryComputer1470 I don't think you should quit, but it's okay to give yourself a break, I mean even robots stop for maintainance every once in a while!!.. plus you need to be in a good state, with charged potentials to do magic :P ^_^
also I don't think blindly working hard is an answer, you can climb to the top of a ladder then realize it was on the wrong wall.
Passionate hard workers like you can breakthrough feircely in anything they set their minds to, just take your time to figure it out^^
@BuzzQ thank you for that... now that makes more sense now...
I've been trying to figure out what to do but I just can't make any sense everything and now that you said that... that makes more sense.
I, thank you a lot. So I hope i'd be given a chance by my boss to yah, take a break after this peak time.
Anyway thank you a lot. More power to you. 👊
@raspberryComputer1470 that's the spirit, i hope your soul and whole being a healthy recovery 🌸 and definitely wish you the best in being the strongest, kindest, most inspiring and influential version of yourself 💪🏼