Where is God?
You can't hear anything, perhaps because you don't exist; you're merely an idea, something we use to console ourselves. Humanity placed you in the heavens instead of you placing us on Earth. Or perhaps it's because you don't want to hear, but why? Do you enjoy all this? If you can respond, then speak. Or perhaps it's because you can't hear, and therefore you're an imperfect god. Which one are you? all this suffering and all this de-a-th? And they want us to believe there is wisdom behind it. Do you think I would worship a god like you? A cowardly god hiding behind the clouds? I don't want your sacrifice or your delayed promises. I want to get out of this miserable life that I don't remember choosing.
I no longer expect an answer from you, whether you exist or not. You never responded to me before, and you never will. You didn't avenge those who wronged me, nor did you help me find someone to care for me. You took my mother in the blink of an eye, and you gave me nothing in return. I expect nothing from you, or from anyone else. Keep your paradise to yourself.
I am seeking my own salvation from you. I do not want forgiveness from a god who has not asked forgiveness from us for all the devastation he has allowed. I have learned the lesson well: we are the ones who are crucified, we are the ones who suffer, we are the ones who d-i-e... while you merely watch from afar, if you are even watching at all.
Where were you when peace was taken from me? And where was your majesty when tears were my only companion in nights whose sun rose only on more disappointments? They say that you are "generous," so where is your generosity for an orphan who feeds on memories? And they say that you are "just," so where is your justice for an oppressor who sleeps soundly while I toss and turn on the embers of oppression?
From now on I don’t need you
I hope you find what you’re looking for. You question most religious do.
You post in a way that most forum users will find of putting. To find people who claim to be god you look in mental hospitals.
Many religions say god is within us. You were told the simple answers.
You seem distressed.
Please talk to older people in your community. I am in UK the church leaders of major faiths go to theological college and learn about other faiths. They have these questions.