Adulting & Loneliness

I don’t know how I’m going to manage in the future with money, work, and having stability and housing. I feel like I might be lazy for wanting to rest and have someone support me. Realistically I know I am not going to find that easily. I can be targeted or victimized easily and often because of my need for support networks. I had more of a reliable system from where I came from, and ever since I had to flee from that area I have seen its downfall and exposure rising. It’s hard to be living already in the country where your documents originate from and them be false already. I can not get by easily without those things if I am fleeing into a new country. Privacy did not hold still for me for some time, and people can find me easily and no one will help or is willing to help. I make some friends along the way, but either it becomes too much for them or something that they do not want to handle. That would be a me problem right, just venting. But I am concerned because homelessness has hit me before, I was lucky to have a car to live in before but this time it’s different. I can not end up on the streets. It is dirty and already embarrassing enough that I can not keep up with the rest of everyone else. Not even always because of my own energy but because there are people who come for me in real life ways. I have to keep going by myself and I am scared of worst case scenarios while seeking clarity and answers for what I have went through. I have to keep working. I can’t fall behind.