Alone( Please Read)
Hi , I am 16 And I struggle With Relationships , Lust , Family issues and finding Myself .
When I was in 8th grade I met This girl . We talked and we fell in love . We started to argue and she changed her school . That's when i started to cheat on her . She eventually Found out and she never forgave me. After She was done with me I start to get feelings for her , Strong feelings . Till this day I still sometimes Cry over Her , I still think about her . I try to get my mind off her By talking to other girls but it doesn't work . I just cheat cheat cheat and All I want from a girl is sex . My sexual drive is so high . All I have is Lust . I Don't Like sex or anything sexual anymore . It feels good but what am I gaining out of it . When im alone And Im feeling that type of Way I release My hormones. After that , I sit there , And realize How lonely I am . Nobody checks up on me , Nobody texts me , Nobody Cares about me I am all alone . All I do Is release my hormones , Cheat on girls and hurt their feelings , And im not gonna lie I don't like hurting people at all . That's why it's so hard for me to break up with someone . I just want to have an emotional connection with someone . The love I have for my first gf . I don't always want to talk about sex . I want to do things that happy couples do. I don't even know what to do with myself anymore . Do I just better myself , How do I even do that ? Do I try with another girl ? I don't know what to do . I am alone no one cares about me I just need someone to talk to . I am a loser and a failure. I don't know what to do with My life . Im gonna have to get a job soon , Get a house , Live alone , Pay bills , Work work work . I don't want to do that . I want to stay a kid . Im scared of growing up . Im scared of being out there in the world by myself , Not knowing the next step or being alone . Im scared and I am confused. I am a bad person. We are all alone in this world .
@CantGoBack7
i wont categorise yourself as a loser just yet based on what you described . as far working is concerned , one has to work , dosent really depend if you are in relationship or not . the amount of work done or effort put will be depended upon what standard of living you want to live in in your entire life . and many things come under that on which we would not talk about . but you not loving someone and your lust are two different things entirely. high drive or high testerone level is cause of your lust , if you will not take it out directly or through excercise , you will get extremely irritated. i understand that . as far love is cobncerned, its a mutual thing that consist of communication , honesty and loyalty which you call love overtime . list out what you find interesting and work on it , dont wait to be perfect.
