Am out of words
Hi.
Does these things matter?does people care about other people who are depressed.i never talk about my depression to anyone because I think it's uncool or maybe too cry baby thing and people will mock me if I talk about this.
But this is the point am trying to get support may be it works may be not.idk.
Am having serious thoughts that it's so miserable when a person has to suffer here all their life and then because they couldn't do good here they'll be going to *** in life hereafter... hahaha I don't know how to react to this reality of my life.i don't know what to do.if I live it'd add to my wrongdoings and if I die I'd be suffering in *** .I have got no option.
@purpleHickory1657
Man much relateable. You are a beautiful soul, really are.
I also used to consider myself a good soul and tried to be a good soul but I didn't know at this peak point of my life I would realize that it's me who is at the wrong side not people...i am the bad person of people's live....
And now I can't do anything about it...
Depression allows us to see more clearly. You see lots of suffering in the world by opening your eyes you avoid causing the suffering you see. If bad people did that and cared as you do the world would be better.
By saying i feel so so rather than I feel ok when people ask you are more honest and demonstrate to others who struggle they can be more honest.
Some suffering is necessary, a child suffers if told they can’t have sweets, or if told they can but sweets but sweets harm them, or from obesity and medical problems when older if no one is honest or restricts then.
The reality is some would use your honesty about being depressed to temporarily make themselves feel superior most of us suffer from feeling worse than others if we feel better than others we feel less bad.
A child is full of curiosity but likes harmful sweets, growing up means most things start seeming harmful. It would be bad if people did not grow up but if someone can’t function or feels torchered as you do that is to quickly.
I don’t think people go to *** if they kill themselves, we collectively fail them by not supporting them. No one should feel tourchered and if someone does and it can’t be fixed and made bearable they have right to not experience the agony in my opinion.
You suffer but it is fixable talk to older people. You did well reaching out here. Parodoxily the ability to consider it might be better not existing gives people ability to exist well. Putin has missle defence around his palaces meaning Russian infrastructure is destroyed causing Russians to suffer, Putin is responsible for 2k deaths a day. Zelensky visits troops on front line taking moderate risks. Who do you think is comfortable with the idea of death.
You obviously are more like Zelensky when America removed support the EU was having funding difficulties and Ukraine was loosing. Zelensky will have felt like you expressed. Now the EU is funding Ukraine and Russia is on back foot. Things change. You will have good times and bad.
Your words are really comforting...
But if I am the villain in other people lives?even I don't want to hurt them but my soul or so traumatized and was in survival mode since childhood,I get triggered by things that may be are too small to people but for me it triggers my wounds and traumas and my body and brain responds so bad trying to protect myself .....and people gets hurt .....my parents get hurt .....I try to be gentle to them but I end up hurting them every time.....
So in this case am the one bad person ,the most troublesome person here,with this how am I gonna get success in this life ?and also hereafter!!!
Thank you for being nice but i am going to be nasty. Putin has power over millions and is responsible for 2k deaths a day. You have only a tiny amount of power you could be a nasty brat and it would not cause much harm.
Your heart is good not wanting to harm many go I can do X good so I should be allowed to do 2X harm. You don’t. If you eat good plants and fish until you learn what good things are in fish you will harm less.
Eating good things will improve your mood and eventually you will find how to do 2X good causing X harm.