Bitterness and hate
I am becoming so full of bitterness and hate towards others. It is becoming not healthy. To the point where i wish evil thinhs to happen to others and i am happy when others are failing at something. I just been soooo hurt my whole life and it makes me sick. I habe constant physical pain now! It's my stupid trauma that is manifesting in this way!!! I am so sick and tired of this stupid and meaningless world with only stupid humans that want to hurt me! What have i done to them?! I didn't deserve this horrible treatment. I was once a happy kid but now i am jist broken. I seriously want something to happen to our planet so we will all finally die and there will be no people to hurt me anymore.
Hey @schrodingerscattt
I'm genuinely sorry to hear about the pain and hurt you've been through. It sounds incredibly tough, and it's understandable how these feelings can lead to bitterness. It's heartbreaking to hear how your past experiences are affecting you so deeply.
Remember, your feelings are valid, but they don't have to define your future. There's still room for healing and finding peace, even if it seems out of reach right now. Have you considered seeking support from a therapist or counsellor? They can be immensely helpful in navigating these feelings and helping you find ways to cope and heal.
You deserve to find some peace and happiness again, just like you had in your childhood. You're not alone in this
