Depression
Well it seems I'm depressed and anxious these days, literally I am not joking you 3 days ago I was feeling the same way and somehow was feeling better a few hours after, I woke up at 6am British Standard Time and was in a very sad way, I've won't lie here I've been crying and also the other night before I went to sleep I was also crying for a short time, i don't really know why or what is wrong with me but I do believe there is more to this mental illness of mine, like my life I have literally no social connection with any human being and if I talk to someone its on here but that's not the same bcuz being online isn't healthy. People say your this your that here but we only know why they say that bcuz it's part of the guidelines here and you have to pretend to me nice and actually think you have made them feel better but deep down you know everyone is always looking after number 1 (ourselves) nobody even reads my posts that's how much I am and mean to people here which I don't really care bcuz I've tried to do things for some people here and also support some of you anyway the point I'm trying to say is if anything was to happen to me in real life it would take someone 3 to 5 years to know I'm not here and those people would be debt collectors or the people who realise you haven't payed your bills, yep, that's how much I mean to people these days I don't even know why I rant it's gonna let lost this post they always do oh well 🤷♂️🤷♂️🤷♂️🤷♂️🤷♂️🤷♂️🤦♂️🤦♂️🤦♂️🤦♂️🤦♂️
I unfortunately can relate. But I can also confirm that these overwhelming waves of emotions are temporary and start a domino effect to make you feel insignificant in every aspect until you're a vegetable. You have to be the change in your life because no nody else can or will choose to make changes for you. No, it does not need to nor can you change overnight, but you better believe that you can take one step towards your better future in the smallest ways. Some days for me, just getting out of bed and taking a shower is my step forward. Some days I'm so down, I just have to keep saying make it till tomorrow, make it through one more day. And watch yourself grow and be patient as you would be for anyone else feeling the way you do.
@zee33 thats good for you then 👍
Your depression brain is lying to you, in my opinion. I have been on this site (this particular corner) for about 7 years now. I get on almost every night and answer people.
I do think I listen to others because I actually care about them and want to hear what they have to say. I want to hear what you have to say as well.
You may be saying "yah, right" but you can't know exactly what is going on in any one else's brain. You can only know a person's actions. So I challenge you to do something. Put a message in this thread every night this week. I will answer every one of those. I will continue after that if you want. We can even try to be friends. Isn't it worth trying? @CallumKing2000
@bestVase7265 ok
Great! So how are things going for you today? Did you have any moments that felt a little more relaxed?@CallumKing2000
@bestVase7265 I've been very anxious and panicking today but not as bad
That sounds tough even if it is a little better. What kinds of things panic you the most? Is there anything that you try that sometimes makes those moments easier?@CallumKing2000
@bestVase7265 it's going alreet bro for now 🤜🤛
Beautiful. Tell me more about yourself. What are your favorite things to do? @CallumKing2000
@bestVase7265 I've lost interest in everything I do these days today I woke up and felt even worse, I've just tried to do a few things and it's draining, and I'm losing the hope I'm tired these days and I'm not getting any better, I'm literally feeling very ill from It, I hate my life and can't be bothered to carry on but I'm only doing it bcuz I'm forcing myself to do it, to carry on and to keep going. I'm not in the dark, I'm further and I'm in the depths, and I said last night "why won't he come for me and take me home, the real home", I had a offline friend and she told me yesterday to basically smile and get over it so she got blocked, I really can not be bothered anymore, it's too much and I'm in very very serious pain and I do not like this suffering everything is going horribly wrong
I have absolutely no doubt of the pain that you are in. I will never judge you for that or try to minimize it. I have been in your shoes looking into that abyss.
It is all so exhausting and finding the path out takes time and energy with little idea of where you are going. But there is a path out to feeling better.
The key is figuring out what that path looks like for you because it so different for each person. That is why I asked about activities.
I know that this sounds stupid at the moment, but what you are looking for is 15 minutes of peace. You ask how that can possibly matter if the rest of the day is horrible? It actually does if you can recognize that momentary relief as a victory. From there it can slowly build.
So were there any okay moments today? Even 15 minute ones? A good shower or a good meal perhaps? @CallumKing2000
How were things today? I have been thinking about you. I specifically looked up your previous post to find you and check in. You are not forgotten.@CallumKing2000
@bestVase7265 doing okay for now thanks, im just taking a break from being online, but thanks I do appreciate it for the check ups and such, your a good person, thanks bud, hope your well too
Taking a break is awesome. We all deserve that time away.
But feel free to come back to this thread any time to vent. I will always answer within a day. @CallumKing2000
Lord can you hear me speak, free me from this price of this h.e.l.l bound. Lord, can you hear me, I want to talk to you hoping you can hear my voice, I know I'm the last person you want to hear from but I'm having much dark thoughts and highly anxiety, I just want to be taken home, all I want heavenly father is to be taken home and feel at peace where I can feel the love ❤️ I know I may feel better after writing this but I want to see my home, what you have writen for me in the future to see. While I am on earth having days of bad I ask that just give me a sign and reassure my heart that these are valid feeling and thought and that better dayz are coming bcuz well idk I'm out of words, im speechless and feel zoned out. Let's hope tomorrow is a better day, let's just hope 😪🤞
Better days and peace is coming. Remember that you are God's child. That means God loves you and always wants to hear from you. You are precious and you are needed.@CallumKing2000
I give up
How can we help to get you to a better place?@CallumKing2000
