Depression

It feels like I’ve gotten to the point where I just feel completely empty every where I go it’s so hard I have to literally try to force myself to be happy to do anything. When I try to walk around and make myself smile it feels odd that’s how bad it is. I feel like no one really cares about me they just use me for a last resort when they don’t have anyone else same way as in I’m only invited to stuff because someone else has to bring me up. I hate socializing now I sleep over 12 hours at a time I will stay in bed for so long I’m skipping meals and I get constantly asked am I going to get up it’s to the point my vitamin d levels are so low I don’t go outside. Honestly if I didn’t have a kid right now I probably wouldn’t even be here and no one would even notice