Depression and confusion

Hi there ,I need some serious advice really bad, 😞 🙏🏼 you see ,we are very poor,as a family am the second daughter at 22. Life hasn't been the same ever since highschool,am struggling with life decisions,I feel like am the second hand family head ,after my big sister . Me and her we sear and be like "ok,now what are we Gona eat ,how are we Gona survive today,what about our siblings,they need to eat,?,if we get what to eat then thanks God,we reach a time when eating something good feels like a crime ,coz your siblings could need that money for something else ,we became selfless,I feel like we could have a big a nice future but ..😞😞😞,it's draining you know ?,I've tried several online business, dropshiping, creating websites, trading,personal branding, digital products,name it ,am because of my country,some things can't be done ,cuz " they are not supported in your country ",I really need some advice cz lately I've been diagnosed with severe depression,cuz am looking for money in anyway possible,...but I've failed .