Depression rant
Sorry for the rant.
Here lately ive been fighting my depression worse than ever. The problem is i dont know why. Honestly i shouldnt complain. Im a stay at home dad of 2. Me and my kids mom are not together but still live together and have been for the last 2 years and we get along fine. Granted sometimes being a stay at home dad does get stressfull but nothing to terrible. But for some reason lately ive lost all motivation to do anything, always feel depressed, and i feel like ive lost my drive for life. I have no goals, dreams, or desires. I feel like an empty shell and i dont know why. Most days feel like a chore. Im afraid that this depression is going to effect how my children see me. My kids are my whole world and the last thing i want to do is effect my kids negatively in any way.
Sorry for the poor writing. Just emptying thoughts.
Dear @sublimedad91,
Thank you for sharing this openly.
I think you are explaining quite well how you are feeling and what you are worried about, which is super understandable.
I'm sorry to hear that you have no goals or dreams anymore and nothing seems to motivate you in this period of time. That must be a sad feeling to have.
You say that you are worried that it might have an impact on your children. And of course this is a thing that you don't want. I wonder how you are taking care of yourself during this difficult time. Is it possible for you to show your children that you may not always feel okay, but it is important that during that time you to be extra kind to yourself? It is obvious that you love them a lot and them knowing that you still do, combined with that you don't feel well, but are able to take care of yourself... I would think that might help enormously and even might give them a beautiful message.
It is okay to be not okay sometimes. You are still worth as much, you still matter to me.
