Dont know whats going on
Hi :)
I don’t know how to start this because I genuinely dont know whats going on. You see I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety a year a go. Even though I went through *** there were people there for me. I was doing better until now. I feel like when something gets better its stays like that for a little bit and then it just gets 10 times worse. I don’t know whats going on I feel like no one is listening when im screaming on the inside. My parents all they do is ground me and shout. I feel like Im living because im forced to.
I am so sorry that you are suffering. Depression ultimately is a bunch of bad brain chemicals that make you feel awful. They kind of stick with you and then you figure a path out.
The good news is that you figured out a way out and were on the good side of all of it for a bit. That means you can find your way there again.
What made you feel better last time? What kinds of things did you do?@user294739
I enjoy horseback riding and I go every week but with school work and everything I can’t go as frequently as i would like to. It is also hard because its the only thing keeping me here and when I have dose types of thoughts Im usually far away from my horseback riding club. What I mean by this is that its not that accessible and I cant go whenever I need to or want to go. Far from this I don't have anything else that motivates me to stay.
That is tough when the horseback riding isn't something that you can do every day.
Have you considered doing something like that that would feel vaguely similar? Maybe it would be just making sure to get outside more into the fresh air or maybe it would be setting aside a time to watch a horse video or two.
Are there any activities that you do at school that you even semi-enjoy?
Strengthen your soul, remember God, because indeed all problems have a way.