Emptiness
Hi, I'm Michael
Hi, I'm Micheal.
For almost my entire life, I have been unable to feel any emotions. Neither the good ones or the bad ones. The only thing left inside me is an extreme emptiness that cannot be filled by anything.
By my incompetence, I probably drove everyone away from me. That leads to my loneliness and deepening the emptiness. I don't have friends. I haven't talked to anyone i knew, for several months. And although I don't feel anything from loosing them. It's just making my life more empty.
My life becomes dull and pointless. Now i ignore anything and just exist. Even when something bad happens, i ignore it. Even though, i know it will have bigger impact later. But I couldn't care less if it's get worse. Cause nothing matters.
I've been hearing "it will be better soon" almost for six years now. And i realised, it wasn't support, just a fake hope. The waiting is getting longer and longer. And i lost that hope.
It's hard to explain how I feel, when I don't feel anything.
This is a cycle of just existing.
Neither being alive or dead.
Hi there, im sorry about that, yet i want you to know that even when we think things Dont afect US or we Dont feel them as too bad, the harm its being done anyway. Hopefully you find Friends and whatever you deserve. That you are in this app its already a step from you to try and get better. I Hope you get the support you need and if ya need to Talk or anything Im always willing to listen and talk
Hi, Thank you for replying. Yeah, well I know it has impact, on me and people who have been around me. But I mean now I really couldn't care less. It's just, now nothing matters, and my life is just being meaningless, so why bother to care about them. And about finding new friends, I don't know. Everyone left me because i started to being myself. And yeah, someone who would listen and maybe who would understand, would be nice. So if you're willing, then can we talk?
Yeah of course, i know stuff can be more *** when you Dont have noneone to turn on Im honest when i say we can Talk. +34 632236094 (i dobout we can do It privatly in this app so there you go if ya want WhatsApp)
Hi, Thank you for replying. Yeah, well I know it has impact, on me and people who have been around me. But I mean now I really couldn't care less. It's just, now nothing matters, and my life is just being meaningless, so why bother to care about them. And about finding new friends, I don't know. Everyone left me because i started to being myself. And yeah, someone who would listen and maybe who would understand, would be nice. So if you're willing, then can we talk?
Just making sure the message got to ya :D
