"Empty heart"

Hello everyone ^^, I'm new here, you can call me Des, I'm an 18 years old male.

I keep feeling empty, lonely and worthless after I broke up with my "ex", I just can't get over it, it's been over a year, but almost everyday it gets in my mind... everything reminds me of him and I feel so broken and hopeless, I tried to think of someone else but I can't get myself to love anyone but him, I just live hoping that he would randomly like me again. But that wouldn't make absolutely no sense.

He really understanded me, I've come to the conclusion that he was perfect, literally my type, in all kind of areas.. All of this is added to the fact that I have no friends that I could "real friends", and even by the breakup of my parents. They make me conflicted, I neither dislike them or like them... but I really wish I was born in another family. So I hoped to find someone here that could understand me and maybe have a chat with me, I think it would really make me feel better.

(oh btw sorry for eventual mistakes, my first language is Italian)