Endless Loop
The thing about depression is you don’t remember how life was like before you were in it. I find the days harder to get through and any ounce of hope I had is running out. The thing about this time around is I know there’s light and I know there’s hope because I’ve been taken out of this before but now it feels like it’s been taken out of me. So scary how bleak your future becomes in this depression and you just look for anything to save you. Anything to distract you from the reminder of the weight of the world sitting on your chest. I guess I still have it, faith.
It sounds like you are starting the emerging from depression process. You get these windows of light that are nice, but the dark periods still feel like nothing has changed.
For me what helped was realizing that the dark periods were shorter because I had a better idea of how to get out.
I hope that your pain has been a bit less today. @nicoledes
