Endlessly Fighting an Overtaker
First post, new to the app. I feel like depression has become my entire life and identity. I don’t know who I am, what I like and brings joy. It’s been so long since I’ve felt happy, I dread getting up in the morning and everything takes the hardest amount of effort, I’m exhausted mentally and physically all the time. I'm completely socially isolated, don't have any friends and I feel uncomfortable making small talk and approaching people. I'm currently new to counseling, it helps some but i haven't experienced much change in my thinking patterns. I have tried so many different antidepressants, they work for a bit and then they don't.
I have unhealthy ways of coping with all of it but not even that is enough.
I know there is a lot of people who are in similar circumstances and would be encouraging to hear how they cope with the mind doom.
If you have any helpful advice I will sincerely appreciate it
@MasqueradeIV
Thank you so much for sharing this—it takes real strength to speak so openly, especially when you're in such a difficult place. Everything you described—the exhaustion, the disconnection from yourself, the isolation, the emotional weight just to get through the day—it’s all so real, and I just want to say: you’re not alone in this.
Depression has a way of swallowing up everything, even our sense of self. It’s not just sadness—it’s feeling like your own identity has slipped away and you're surviving in a fog. And I hear how discouraging it must be to have tried medication and counseling and still feel stuck. That doesn’t mean you're beyond help—it just means your mind and body are tired, and that your healing might take more time, or a different path.
For me, what’s helped—bit by bit—is letting go of the pressure to “fix” everything and instead just focusing on the smallest possible wins. Drinking a glass of water. Moving my body for five minutes. Writing down one thought without judgment. Depression tells you nothing matters—but those little things do matter. They're signals to your brain that you’re still here, still trying.
It’s okay that small talk feels impossible and that socializing is exhausting. You don’t have to go full speed into connection. Even being here and posting is a form of reaching out—and that’s a big deal.
You’re not broken, and this version of you is not all there will ever be. Keep going. Keep showing up, even in the quietest way you can. There is still a path forward, even if you can’t see it right now. We’re here, walking it with you.
Thank you for your kind and beautiful words, thank you for taking the time.
Your advice is incredibly appreciated it and very helpful.
I live in my head 24/7 that to actually feel in the moment it takes effort and discipline. My mind feels like a prison I’ve gotten used to feeling trapped
I know creating good habits and breaking bad ones is difficult to achieve but setting up small goals can be the way to encourage myself to strive for bigger ones.
I’m hoping to find community here and a place where people actually understand what I’m going through.
Welcome to 7Cups! I'm Kiara :)
You sound a lot like me...
