Feeling Stuck and Lost

I grew up in a family where my father was very strict and unkind. When I was a child, he used to hit me and make decisions on my behalf, without giving me the freedom to choose for myself. Over time, I tried to forget these experiences, but they still affected me in ways I didn’t realize at the time. One of the biggest impacts was that he made me hate school and learning.

As a result, I completed my baccalaureate with a low grade. In my country, having low grades means you don’t have good options to study in public universities, so private schools become the only solution. I ended up choosing architecture and studied for six years. It was a tough journey, full of struggles, but I managed to graduate.

However, after all these years of hard work, I now find myself stuck. There is an ongoing conflict between the government and private architecture schools, which prevents me from working in my field. I can't gain experience or create opportunities for myself abroad. I feel lost, as if my life is not moving forward, and I’m afraid I’ll stay in this situation forever.

Right now, I feel broke and lonely. I have a girlfriend, but I feel like I’m losing her because she deserves better—she’s in a much better financial situation than I am. I'm still living with my parents, and I feel like a burden to them since I stay at home all day with nothing to do. This makes me feel really bad, and I don't see many options or opportunities ahead of me.

I feel overwhelmed and unsure of what to do with my life