Feeling down

First before I say anything I want to introduce myself my name is Aaliyah

Lately it’s been hard. I’ve been dealing with depression, ADHD, and social anxiety — and most days it feels like no one around me really understands. I don’t have friends, and I’ve been single for almost 10 years. It gets lonely in a way that’s hard to explain. I still think about things like becoming a parent someday, but even that feels so far away. I don’t know if it’s ever going to happen, and that’s been sitting heavy on me today. Sometimes it makes it hard to do things though like school work or sometimes I just feel like sleeping a lot and I feel like my family doesn't understand and then sometimes I just feel like eating and then I try to talk to people But I have social anxiety because I was homeschooled at one point and I'm just looking for one place where I can talk to people who actually understand and I won't get ignored. I've tried dating apps but even they don't help I don't know what to do.