Feelings of sadness

I don’t know if anybody is gonna see this but even on my relatively good days, my nights become filled with sadness. Today my upper radiator hose ripped from my car and all the coolant dripped out/leaked out. Even though that was kinda bad and I was able to fix the issue myself, I felt pretty good during the day, feeling very accomplished and even made it to work on time. But now that the day is over, I can’t help but feel a little sad, but maybe it’s depression instead of sadness. I feel this weight in my heart that’s holding me down tonight that I wish I can get rid of or something to help me just “feel” more happier tonight instead of 1.drinking or 2.getting lost in my head and spiral for hours. I don’t know if it’s just the time of day that’s making me feel sad, but I always get this feeling of pain and regret and night…