Hi, just joined.

I recently came to a realisation that I am not what a normal healthy and happy teen should be, and it has jarred me quite a bit. I'm addicted to my phone, I don't go out alone, I don't get good grades, I don't feel good about myself. I lie constantly, I fake my feelings, I try to trick myself into believing i'm fine. I also don't have the motivation or energy to change any of this. I wish for nothing more than to disappear overnight and stop disappointing my parents.