I WANT CRY
I'm very depressed. Sometimes I feel that my family is right and that I would be better off if I were dead. It's sad to know that even if you try to make them appreciate you, they will never succeed, you're just a nuisance that should never have been born and they take it out on you when it wasn't their day. I'm sad , I cry every day. I don't know what to do
@Adrian157
Obviously, I don't know you or your situation... but anyone who tells you that "you'd be better off dead" doesn't care about you in the slightest and you should get away from them as soon as possible. I struggle with depression myself and what keeps me going is lots of 'positive self-talk'. I have children and constantly remind myself that I need to be there and be strong for them. Although I've been divorced several times, I tell myself that I am worthy of life and love.
As I reread your post, I get the feeling that you may be young. If so, just remain strong until you are able to get out on your own. Prior to 18 you have very limited control of your life and some of us go through some horrible things in those years. Sometimes all you can do is survive it. Once you hit 18 and can take control, it is up to you to turn it around from there.
If I missed the mark thinking you are young, then the choice is already yours. Anyone who feeds you negative and destructive thoughts like that needs to be cut out of your life. While you may not be able to choose the people you're related to, you can choose the role they have in your life. In my mind, family is more than just blood relation. I have relatives that I haven't spoken to in 20+ years and I have people I've met along the way who I consider brothers. Find things you enjoy and devote time and energy towards those things. Go camping, take up drawing or painting, start working out, begin dance lessons, come sing drunken karaoke with me... the options are endless.
Your "family" is wrong. You are better off here. You have gifts that are unique to you that the world needs.
Are there ways of slowly but surely getting out of your situation? Why do you have to be around your family to begin with? Finding outside outlets feels like it might be a good option.
We can be here to cheer you on. You deserve better. @Adrian157