I am a worthless dumb wimp
I cannot go on like this. Only bad memories stick and come alive every time when I think of them. Even the memories from childhood.
I am afraid all the time, sick to my stomach every time I think of these memories, which is constantly.
I am in a never ending loop. Have been for decades.
I always embarrass myself, make myself look like a ret ard I am. At work I overheard them referring to ma as “the fat smelly ret ard”. They are right.
I’d like to suggest a mental exercise to you:
Try journaling your negative thoughts. Write down everything that comes to mind. Then stop, reread what you wrote, and start a new page. On the new page, write an apology to yourself. Apologize for thinking about harming yourself, apologize about calling yourself names, apologize for not allowing yourself to be you. Give yourself forgiveness for the past, and be the hug you yearn for.
If you believe those people at work you need to prove them wrong. Prove yourself wrong. Depression is a sickness that not only affects the mind but the body as well. So remember to take care of your body. If you think you’re stinky, take more frequent showers. If you think you’re overweight and that bothers you, try to be conscious of what you’re eating or start a simple exercise routine. Get yourself to a point where you can be comfortable with your physical image, maybe even smile at yourself in the mirror. Get yourself to a point where you can be comfortable with your physical image, maybe even smile at yourself in the mirror.
As for the past, you’ll need to allow yourself to remember what happened, grieve what happened, and then accept what happened. Once you’ve given yourself the space to accept that what happened happened and the only thing you can do is focus on the now, you’ll be a step closer to realizing your true potential.
Do it for yourself, screw what others think of you.
@princesaluna thanks for taking the time to write. I do try, and have been trying for so long. I cannot face another failure.
I deserve no apology.
Even the mods here muted me in all group chats, because I am apparently in crisis. Even though I explicitly told them I was not.
Just another proof I am a worthless 💩
You’re not allowing yourself forgiveness, and instead of asking for proper help you’re just posting hate on yourself. I can see why they’d consider this a crisis.
To lift the fog you must first acknowledge the fog.
@princesaluna you are right. I’m an idiot, and should be muted. Thank you.
Sigh… you’re missing the entire point. You’ll need to speak to a professional, as I cannot help those unwilling to help themselves.
@princesaluna I was venting. I don’t remember asking for your help, and certainly I did not asked for your judgment.
I would say, thanks God i am not similar to you. I am not ugly to you. I am not sorry as you say to your personality. I even don't know who you are ( a girl/ a boy) ( a male/ a female). But I am not better than many Hollywood actors. Why God not made me a handsome personality in the world. Yes, I feel ashamed when I stand alone in a lift with a girl, who was so pretty, so beautiful.
But you now brother, I am currently feel so negative more then you in my life. Because I recently realised that I am not so good compare to others. If I was I would get that beauty in my life at then. May be she would find me the best and handsome
@shaquifakhtar786 I am a 47 year old man. I didn’t understand everything you said, but I can relate with comparing ourselves to others. I wish I could learn to stop doing that.
I am 32, yes a bit younger. But yes, even I am not as worthy as I should be even to get praises for me in my life
You're a human and human will always better then a *** as you marked in your profile. Why do you compare yourself with such idiot in your neighborhood, city, or in daily life. When you will die they won't care. Then why you care everyone's appraisal on your personality
You are a beautiful person, a strong human. Yes you're a strong person and it's true. Because if you were a looser, you had died very early by attempting suicides. But still you are alive. This means you are stronger then those who are dying in short period of time
