I can't find hope and reasons.
I've always wanted to have a relationship, but I feel rejected every single day since the last 19 years at least. I don't find anything worth my effort because I know I'll be alone anyway. I could have a car, money, a good job, probably, and I would feel empty anyway because I only really care about loving and being loved for real. I have family and friends, but talking to them doesn't make things better.
@Mizuki312
Hi, i can empathetise a little, I isolated for a while due to health issues and simply life, craving deeper emotional connections but equally afraid of them and not wanting my own fears and insecurities to be a burden to others. I'm not there yet but am gradually becoming more hopeful, gratitude journalling is helping and being active on Cups has lightened things a little too. I've noticed that some of the casual aquantaincies I see at the gym and coffee shop in particular are gradually deepening and that is likely due to a shift in my perspective, small steps but at least heading the right way again.
