I don't know what to do and I need help (tw)

I started crying because my stepdad started yelling at me and cussing at me because I don't understand what he said (he speaks Spanish and English but he always talk to me in Spanish and I don't know why) then my mother heard me crying and got mad at me, I was so frustrated and threw a shoe at her (which was my fault I can't control my fits) she then beats me in the face where I started bleeding all over my mouth. I started going crazy and scratching myself and bleeding all over the arms because of past trauma, (my parents would always beat me) I tried to end myself, my mom saw me and tried to help me. Everything cool down after around 20 minutes. My mother wanted to hug me to apologize and say sorry. Of course I got angry and said no softly. Now she's in the kitchen sitting down starring at the window and I don't know if I should talk to her and make up. I always love my mom she did everything to me but what she did was too far. Should I make up with her?