I feel hopeless.
I couldn't go to work today. I feel so numb. I couldn't sleep for days. I tried asking help from my parents but nothing. I think if I go to work today,I wouldn't be able to do my work at all. For the past few days,I've been sick,I took my medicine more than I should. There are times where I took pills just to make myself feel numb.
@bluePrune4079
You're obviously going through a tough time right now, and it's normal for life to have problems that we can't solve. I'm sorry your family can't support you right now, and I hope they understand. But you have a right to feel this way. You have a right to be weak. You have a right to feel difficult. And honestly, you're not alone. Don't dwell on the pressures you're going through. You're not being very productive right now, but you need to take a break. You could probably get help from someone, like a therapist or something, but I want you to stay strong and believe in yourself even in this tough time. I hope you figure this out because you're valuable and you can live the life you want, just like the rest of us. Hang in there!
@bluePrune4079 A lot of people do self-destructive things to numb their pain from feelings, but that'll only create more problems later for you. As you can see, the consequences of your actions proved my point here. I'm sure a lot of us have numbed to something, I know I have. I healed that part of myself and learned to feel and deal with my emotions, as they're important in the healing process. I'm not sure why you're doing it, but if you're doing it for a person, let me just be clear. NOBODY is worth you hurting yourself over. If that's the case, distance yourself or let them go. They have no place in your life.