I feel like my life is falling apart
Hello, this is about to be a book so I apologize in advance: I was in a car accident a little over year ago and since then everything just seems to have fallen apart. Prior to the accident I suffered with anxiety, depression and PTSD from my childhood and life in general (I have had a rough life) but now everything is so much worse mentally and I am in so much pain all the time I can barely do anything. My quality of life is horrible. I have 2 kids who I feel like I’m failing because before the accident I was able to work, take care of the kids, the house and the pets easily. I was the one who did it all. Now I can barely do anything around the house, definitely can’t work and barely am able to spend time with the kids. I’m relying on my bf for financial support which I feel terrible about because I’ve never relied on anyone else in my life for financial support like this. I hate waking up every day. I’m also afraid to sleep because I’m worried I’ll pass away. Things have been incredibly rough for me and I never thought my previous mental health issues could get worse than they were but here we are. I don’t know what to do to feel better. I have a doctor who (out of the many I’ve seen) has given me some hope. He was able to tell me what was wrong and wants to try ketamine infusions to fix it. I’ve been let down so much by doctors on this journey that my hope is very little and I want to give up but I’m trying to stay positive.
@WitchMom15 awww honey I'm so sorry😥 mental health really sucks, but the added mental issues the crash has caused, it must be just terible for you right now😞 I'm sure your kids understand at least a little bit ❤ your not a bad mum or failing them ❤ your bf wouldn't support you if he didn't want to, or if he didn't love you ❤ so there's no need to be guilty there. Are you physically hurt from the crash??
hugs you tightly ❤
@Tinywhisper11 thank you for your kind words 💜 I know they understand why I’m different now but I still feel horrible :( and my boyfriend does love me as far as I know but he is also dealing with his own things so we have some issues sometimes which isn’t nearly as bad as issues I’ve had with previous relationships. I was injured physically in the accident and have been seeking care for over a year with no one able to tell me what was wrong with me. The doctor I found now tells me it’s central sensitization which sucks and it also sucks that no one really tried to find out what was wrong with me to begin with because whatever physical injury I did have healed and probably healed wrong :( my back hurts a lot and my hips and legs too. I have radiating pain everywhere but it stems from my back. My heart rate has also increased and sometimes I feel like I’m going to black out (and have before). I can hardly sleep and when I do sleep it’s only for a few hours (1-4) so I’m not getting good sleep at all. I have a dog I rescued before the accident who now I can’t stand at all and I usually have a lot of patience for things and have cared for animals my whole life. Everything has changed in my life and drastically at that :( I appreciate you reading all of this and the previous lol I know it’s a lot
@WitchMom15 dealing with constant pain is draining, I can sympathise with you there. I hope it gets a bit better for you😥 feeling bad about not being able to do the things you used to with your kids and dog, is naturally gonna be hard, and frustrating, but you will all get used to doing things a little bit differently together.the fact you feel bad just shows what a great mum you are ❤ some things that happen, we will never be prepared for, like your accident😥 but don't worry it will all end up working out ok ❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11 thank you so much for your kindness 💜 you have really helped me feel a little better about things 💜
@WitchMom15 always here for you ❤
@Tinywhisper11 the same goes for you too 💜
