I hated my existence

I don't know from where to start

I have divorced parents and I grew up with my aunt cuz both of em were on field works.

My aunt abused my mind since I was 4 she told me that they left me cuz I'm unwanted kid and burden for their individual success and I believed that on my late ages. I'm the only child, my dad never want me and I started to see the lose of interest in my mom too. I'm introvert and don't have many friends but I had two besties. They betrayed me and hurt me physically and mentally in both by different situations because I wasn't enough for them I wasn't popular I was a top student instead I think that is the reason they left me besides the physical pain they gave me. I was abused my my family members. They think my existence held back my mom from her dream. And now she is in unexplainable problem and I can't help her cuz I'm not enough to solve it.

I withdrew this year's school year because I am severely sick but still they hate treating me they are just doing it so I can survive not be they care idk about them but based on what I saw, experience and being told I am useless hate from parents, family, friends and no future

Hope no one experienced this.